I wanted to give you an update on the EMS/paramedic thing. Through this blog somehow I was connected with a lady who knows a semi-big wig in the local fire department here and after chit chatting he convinced me to do my training through them, so this next week I will be starting that. Their EMT-B class isn’t until early September, but he assures me I will get lots of training and experience in the mean time. My hubby is also going to take that class. I don’t really have any grand plans for any of this. My main goal is learning and becoming better prepared, so we shall see where it leads me. I have to get my CPR Cert before then. I actually know how and have been trained, but never got the formal deal, so that happens in mid-August.
I have received only 2 kinds of responses to my desire to go down this path…You can do it. you can do anything or it’s hard, it’s time consuming and you should be warned. I very much appreciate both. I feel so crazy blessed that I have people that stand behind me no matter what. Never a negative word to say and a belief in me that is unshakable. Other than my husband I haven’t had that kind of support in my life up until a year or so ago. But, I am also lucky that I have people(although not necessarily friends) who will tell me the ugly side of things. Help me reevaluate and think of things I might not have thought about. I have one person who does both. In case you are wondering my husband falls into the former group.
I can do it. I can do anything. I actually have done a lot of difficult things in my life. Things that were physically hard, mental difficult and the like. I am determined and focused, so I know I can, but I am already busy and I am a mommy. I need to be a mommy to my kids and I want to, so the balance has yet to be figured out and I don’t know that it will be until I get into it and see.Things will have to be given up, but I already know what is important and what I am willing to give up and what I am not. I am very fortunate as all of my family has been crazy supportive. I have always been close to my 14 year old(with the exception of a tiny period where she was a bit “attitudy” The re-adjustment phase for her was rough on all of us:), but this last year our bond has deepened in a way I can’t explain. As she has watched me struggle and come back and she has tried to find her way from passive thinking to a more warrior like one…the talks and the tears…her watching me and reading my words, it has been remarkable the way it has connected us. I think you all have been witness to E and what we have had to overcome. Her distrust and fear. That is a bond that was formed out of her learning to trust me again and her need to feel safe and my need to be someone she could count on, that experience, I wish on no one, but what resulted is nothing short of miraculous. The youngest 2 have been pretty clueless. For them, I think this is just how mommy has “always” been. The Marine, well, he is good at adapting and overcoming and plus he loves me, and he keeps saying it is my turn. No one knows if I will finish or not, but I am betting on I will.
No work at FPF Training until early September either. John cancelled the classes for July and August due to the heat. It’s both good and bad. I have enjoyed the time with the family and the timing worked out beautifully with the hubs travel for work and our trip to Ohio. It’s bad because I miss working and seeing John and being at the range. I haven’t been out to FPF in 2 weeks, I haven’t trained with Arete for 2 weeks and I feel very stagnant, but I have made an enormous amount of cookies with my children, read more than I have been able to in a year, watched endless hours of Disney movies, and been to the pool more times than you want to know. It has kind of evened out.
The connection with my Handyman is growing. We were invited to his boat, but I couldn’t make it because M had volleyball camp. We did a trade for work with a car we had. It was a surprise for his fiance. He let us tag alone as her gave it to her. That was cool. While at dinner she expressed a desire for me to teach her to shoot, so I already love her.
Here is a video clip of me looking for what M had moved in our front room. She had been recording and forgot to turn it off. I edited the clip(by clip, I do not mean this video is of the assault variety) down.
IMG_3096(1)(I can’t figure it out, so check back later and hopefully I will have)
I was a little punchy and frustrated because things had been moved by the Handyman as well as the younger kids, so it appeared like everything was in the wrong spot. After this, I decided to give the kids a different room to mess with. I think I will only really focus on the rooms M & E do. It will also be easier or actually more difficult once the construction is done which should be today. After I get my house put back together, M will be able to do more of the subtle things I talked about before.
My ribs are all but healed. Strange, every once in a while out of no where I will get a sharp shooting pain or a tightness. Can’t pin point a pattern. I will go days running, lifting, wrestling with the kids and nothing, then I will be driving in my car and wham, sharp pain that stops me in my tracks. Not really a fan.
My man comes home tonight, YIPPEEE! He has not laid hands on me in 2 weeks either(well, 10 days), so if any of you call, I will not be answering.
I am reading a new book, “Battleground Pacific: A Marine Rifleman’s Combat Odyssey in K/3/5” So far, really good.
He retired, but his resources look like that might be worth taking a look at.
I think we all caught up.