I often find myself in a quandary. I spend most of my time in terms of safety, focused on myself defense with a little focus on a zombie Apocalypse(although super fun to think about) or a real end of the world, the government is collapsing scenarios.
I am so new to this whole prepping thing that I am never sure how much of this talk is just hyperbole and how much is a valid. When I get done reading some people’s opinion I want to completely stop investing or doing anything other than building a compound somewhere and hunkering in, but I always think well if this isn’t the end of America my kids are gonna be pretty mad I spent all our money on stuff to make homemade bombs.
I honestly don’t know how bad things are or how much I should be worried. I have asked a few people that I think know, but I only get vague answers like, “I’d be ready” or “An AR-15 would be a good idea, but yet 2.” or “It’s coming.” Doesn’t help me. I have neither the experience or the education to truly access the situation, so I keep trying to find a balance between planning for a not so good situation and an all hells breaking loose one.
To be honest I am so far behind, I think what is the point. Is an extra bag of rice really gonna matter? One more box of ammo? Not when you only have 50 to begin with.
Most of the time I try to lull myself into believing that while things are not good, not good at all, we are still a few years away from a total world war or even civil one.
Then I get an email from a friend of mine. She and I were friends when we were kids. Actually, our mother’s were friends, so our families spent a lot of time together. A lot. We drifted over the years due to life, but last year her mother found me and we all reconnected. During one of our phone conversations(I called her, people) we discussed guns and all that. She was not against guns, but the entire idea of guns in her home with her kids was way, way, way to much for her to even process. The conversation on the phone made her uncomfortable. We are hundreds of miles a way and just me talking to her about my gun made her squirm. It was apparent in her voice. We never really spoke of it again.
Last month out of the blue, I got a text from her…”What kind of gun do you carry. I am thinking of getting one.” Of course I had the whole discussion about choosing a gun, what’s it for, and that her needs might be different than mine etc, but that isn’t the point. The point is she wanted a gun. Great.
Naturally, I wondered why now, so I asked. She never responded to that question for some reason other than to day it was for home defense.
Yesterday I get an email from her that says…
Just to have for defense in case the economy tanks or something changes drastically. I am not planning on carrying at this point. Just going to take lots of classes and going to become an ace shot. And pray to God I would never ever need it.
Now, I am worried. A person who spends no time thinking about the economy, the end of the world, prepping, Zombies or guns, is not only concerned enough to start the discussion but is actually taking action. Her and I are not close. We are friendly, we chat from time to time, but I would not say were “friends”. Yet, apparently, I am the only one in her circle that has a gun. Her distrust of her government has grown to the point that she contacted me and bought a gun.
Last month when I got the text, I was excited. Good for her and good for me that I brought it up all those months ago(I always wondering if I talk too much about guns and bad guys), but then I thought, if this woman, is this concerned and even she is preparing for our government to turn on us, well, that is not a such good thing. That does not feel like winning.
That feels like losing, big time.