One hundred percent of the time when I post something very personal like sharing that I am not good at telling people how I feel, I regret posting it and hundred percent of the time it ends up being a profoundly good thing.
I immediately started getting emails from people telling me either they struggle too or they used to struggle. It is easy to tell the people in our families we care and for me it is easy not to tell the people I dislike that, well I dislike them, but the in between people, that is tough on me and come to find out, it is tough for lots of folks.
Maura sent me a lovely note.Thank you for the sound words of wisdom and care. I got some great advice and encouragement from someone else as well. He has been a source of great strength for me for a while. Thank you CC for once again caring enough to share with me. I am deeply, deeply humbled by your belief in me.
That was the “Wow” portion. Now onto the “and Some Other Stuff.”
I read a couple military blogs. I never even knew they had milblogs until I was reading View From Under The Desk several months back. Angus posted about Neptunus Lex dying. I spent that entire night reading his blog and that led me to several other milblogs. I read This Ain’t hell, One Marine’s View and BLACKFIVE everyday. Today BLACKFIVE posted this and I thought that seemed like a good idea, so once a week, probably on Mondays I will re-post one of their tributes. I know today is Tuesday, but what the heck.
I think Brigid has another excellent post here.
My husband left on Friday, so I haven’t slept well. I am not afraid or anything, I just miss him. I don’t like to be touched when I sleep. I always sleep on my right side and I always turn my back to whoever I am sleeping with. My kids, a friend if the sleeping arrangements are tight, even my husband, but with my husband, I always take my left leg and hook his. When he is gone, I often find myself trying to hook his leg and when I realize, half asleep, his leg isn’t there, I spend the rest of the night tossing and turning.
I am tired.