Antsy

I am the tiniest bit excited about learning some knife moves and by a tiny bit, I mean I literally can not stop thinking about it. I am trying not to annoy Mr. Arete by texting him every 2.5 seconds, so to occupy my mind this morning I decided to check out YouTube. Let me say I probably should not have done that. It looks scary and I am kind of thinking no amount of training is gonna be enough. I know some training is better than nothing and I am sure it will help my mindset to be tougher, but I am kicking myself for waiting so darn long to learn how to take care of myself. Which is why I think I get antsy for training. Any training. I was the same way before I left for Memphis and I am the same with John. I nag him all the time.

The other problem I am having is that last night when I took my gun off, the backstrap came off in my hand. The piece that holds it into place is gone. I am completely perplexed as to how that could happen because when I try to remove that piece for cleaning or to change the backstrap it is nearly impossible to do so. I can’t imagine how it twisted and then fell out. I have looked everywhere and can not find that much needed piece. I know it was there yesterday morning when I put my gun on and it was securely in because I checked when I inserted the magazine. It’s odd and somewhat nerve wracking.

We had some room in our schedule open up, so my new plan for today is to tape up my gun, head to the range, try out one of Mr. Arete’s drills and try to settle my mind.

8 thoughts on “Antsy

    • I can do that? I would never to think to do that. Actually, I put it in the safe thinking I couldn’t even use it and my husband said, just tape it. I am not extremely resourceful:)

  1. I’m just guessing as to what would be an approx replacement for the pin. A wooden matchstick might not stay in place. I’ve never played with the M&P so I don’t know what size the pin is to begin with.

    But you have to adapt and overcome!!! 🙂

  2. Aha, a chance to introduce you to one of the gun world proverbs…or maybe cliches, I dunno.

    Anyway: “Two is one and one is none.” Meaning you should always have a spare, a back up, for important stuff like guns. If you have one and it breaks, you have none. If you have two and one breaks…. you see how it goes. I actually have three of my carry gun, plus a couple other pistols I could use if necessary. I often carry a snubby back up. And knives.

    It is also a good reason for you to pursue the knife training route. Knives are shorter range weapons than handguns (but how close was the encounter that started you on this path?). Knives do not run out of ammo, and have fewer moving parts to break…especially if they are fixed blades.

    Also, the knife route will lead to you empty hands combatives, which is another good skill.

    Remember, your mind is the primary weapon – hands, knives, guns, bazookas, helicopter gunships, etc are extensions of the mind.

    • Eric, thank you. This is an excellent comment. Not new information, but what I needed to hear. It’s exactly why I wanted to embark on the training I did with John a fewweeks ago and why I want to move forward now. Sometimes I still let my mind fool me. Seriously, thank you.

  3. Aha! A chance to introduce you to one of the gun/military world’s proverbs…or cliches, maybe, but still true nevertheless.

    “Two is one and one is none.” If you have two of something and one breaks, you still have one to use. If you have one… well, you see how it goes. I have two more copies of my primary carry gun.

    Also, your foray into the knife world will serve you well here. A knife is a good additional weapon to have. It is shorter range than a handgun (but how close was the encounter that put you on this path?), but it does not run out ammo, and has fewer parts to break…especially fixed blades.

    The knife training should also lead you to empty-hands combatives, which are also good when your gun goes south and you drop the knife. Good knife and empty hand training will improve your warrior mindset, which will help you overall. Because, of course, the mind is the primary weapon, the hand, knife, gun, bazooka, tank….etc are just extensions of your mind.

  4. As we/I am fond of saying, a backup to a backup to a backup. It’s called the rule of three. Now you know why…relax, the training will come, you’ve plenty of time.

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