I received 2 emails expressing care to me about my husband and PTSD. It was only 2, but if 2 thought it maybe more do, so I wanted to address it.
My husband does not have PTSD. That is not to say he does not have some lasting effects from serving his country, but my post about PTSD and those in my life who have it wasn’t about him.
The paragraph where I talked about him was more about how neither of us like to discuss things that are difficult or painful in general, but also combat. When he came home from Iraq he carried a lot around with him for a while. He did have some issues, but not PTSD.
When my husband returned from any tour, he didn’t talk, at all and I let him not talk. It has only been in the past few months that I have asked him things and he has started to share with me. I don’t want to talk about him and his feelings because I don’t want to make his feelings more than they were/are nor do I want to trivialize them. The point I was trying to make yesterday is that I have had a long habit of not dealing. Of sticking my head in the sand and making the world a very rosy place inside my head. I have always supported the men and women in the military, but I have not let myself see the full measure of their sacrifice until very recently. I certainty have not done enough to support those who suffer from PTSD or their families.
In my growth I have seen not only how I have let myself down, but how my thinking has caused me to let others down as well. Lately I have been accepting what my responsibilities are to myself, my family and those who fight to keep me free. As with my husband, I had put the full burden of my life on the shoulders of others and I haven’t even had the decency to pay attention to what I could do for them(I have done things in general for service members, but not specifically those with PTSD).
So, for those people in my life that do have PTSD I have been getting more involved and doing more to be supportive to them and also trying to do more to support those I don’t know.
Yesterday’s video and info was part of that effort. Just one more way I could bring awareness to a cause I believe in and a group of people I think deserve all the support they can get.